thursday (HI!! WAVES!)

lol!! well, it is thursday! (shout-out!) yeah, so....the weather is getting nicer therefore making me more happier! there are so many things i feel i need to do, and want to do! well, lately, as i have been saying, i have been wanting a better job! i also want to travel! i have so many places i want to visit! lets see, such as....gettysburg (with mike), south carolina (going with mike when he goes to visit his family), there is also that IB trip end of month, in conneticut i think? i would like to attend, just because its always interesting, but im not sure..plus i dont think mike will be too thrilled if i go. we'll see. i would have to drive up tho, not sure how far or how long that will take? oh its in massachussetts? hmm......not sure how this is going to work!?? oh, 4 hours!?? ok not bad really! who knows!?? whatever!!!! what else? do you even care!? sometimes i wonder why do i blog so much!! i dont think anyone really cares, well, about all the little thoughts i have! also, of course (i also repeat myself just to remind me too, of places and things i want to do...so i dont forget! i guess..), new orleans! cruise! (lisas wedding!!!), montreal, and other countries. would like to visit my friend overseas too! would be cool! also, tokyo! egypt! italy! volunteer in thailand! i do want another job, but then, it will be hard to take off, plus, mike doesnt want to travel all around the country and world, he works and 'cant afford it', so its like...i dont know? its kind of depressing, because i feel sort of like im stuck in this life i never really signed up for. i care and love mike, but, there are so many things i want to do, and he is stopping me! and he will....i want someone who likes to do fun things, someone that i have things in common with....and frankly, i am not quite so sure as to what mike and i even have in common? sure he will be happy once i start working and, "holding my weight' but will i be happy? will i be happy every weekend when he just lays on the couch like a lump? or when, whatever! ugh these people dont leave tips this guy just came over and i saw him take out a dollar but he asked for quarters. i took all my catalogs today, (clothing ones) and took those stickers from lucky magazine, where you can stick them on items you want, and stuck them to all the things i want to order...under 200.00 and lots of nice things! also i want to order a few more things too, just waiting for my tax return! oh yeah, playboy golf is coming up too, darla said she is going to pass, (because she cant figure out how to send pics or something?) whatever! i dont want her to go anyways if she is always going to have a rotten attitude (kidding but, id rather go with shannan or someone who would have fun!)....we are having a picnic this monday, hopefully. oh the wine tasting and arts is this friday night, im working tho, and this fucking job has me working on easter sunday. i doubt i will get holiday pay either.


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i said good friends and conversation is what makes me happy...i said, now that the weather is getting nicer, so does my mood.
oh yeah i forgot, moss keeps reminded me about the revel...he wants me to go to atlantic city with him soon. sigh. i dont really know if i can, well....i have a job and i already have other things im taking off for, going to atlantic city is not really top priority for me. oh this summer i want to go to jersey shore, plus they will be filming there too LOL!