yo quiero rojo vino

aqui! for real...ha! i was feeling pretty down in the dumps today, depressed. well its my day off and i feel like i just wasted it. cvs never called me back, but they pay 8.25 an hour wtf is that!??? its just that, i dont know what i am going to do now? i just dont know? i told tiffany i got that job...ugh...so now its like, mike gets on my case everyday but i dont know why no one just calls me! i just heard a good few songs now, im cooking in the kitchen. it was led zeppelin, then pink floyd is there anybody out there, then just now, time of the season?? its the time of the season...by, the turtles? or the zombies??? whatever makes me want some red wine while cooking! cooking and listening to good tunes and sipping on some wine puts me in a good mood. i went to giant to figure out what to make for dinner, so i got salmon, but the whole time i was there, i felt like crying, due to how pointless my life is, and now mike is going to get on my case...plus i cant find my access card so i had to pay for food myself. i was going to make a recipe but now im just working on the salmon with soy sauce (??i dont know!?), some garlic salt and pepper and thyme...and some squeezed lemon. some rice and spinach i will add some nutmeg and garlic to it as well...shrug....so i was at giant and i felt so depressed i wanted to cry, i feel like such a loser. i saw two girls walking from the easton hospital back to their cars wearing maroon scrubs, (like what i was wearing when i was going to school), on the way to giant, and that made me feel worse. why cant i get a job you know? it depresses me man! so anyways, i went to pick out salmon and thought of what to get with it, thyme! and i heard that rod stewart song, young turks, singing, 'time is on your side!" it made me feel better and made me laugh in my head. not outloud, but i still laughed whatever....i feel so...hopeless right now. numb. and that pink floyd song was comfortably numb. well, i dont feel 'comfortably' numb...i just feel hopeless,