quick blog

i just wanted to write a quick blog before i go to sleep. if i move home, i will not be able to drunk post! this is a good thing! you see, mike tells me i cant drink, and i do NOT like to be told what i can do. ok? you see, when i go out, im fine. i never get out of control, im ok. not trying to make excuses, but i can contain myself in social situations, (such as a bar or party)...and i am invited to two parties and yes i would like to go! these are fun vintage car/rockabilly/tattoo/whatever type parties, but i would like to go. this is what i like to do in the summer, you know? i can handle myself in party atmosphere. as long as i have ppl to chill with im good. its when i am ALONE that i get out of control. when im sitting by myself cuz mike went to sleep, and im on youtube, then i go on the adultswim forums, then i drunk blogpost, that is when i am at my worst. and i stay up till 5 in the morning, so yes i understand why mike always tells me i am not allowed to drink because yes at a certain point i do cross that line into DRUNK STUPID SLOPPY!!! but, like i said, if i go out to a bar, it closes at 2am, and im not at that point anymore. i can be cool, for real. i just cant stay up so late...so im thinking, move back home cuz i cant drink when im at my parents in their house...stay there for a while....be a free person....if i go out fine, or if i hang out with someone or ppl i will not be within way of a damn computer!! now, i go to sleep. yes im contemplating moving out. even mike tells me, he is over me. he knows this day is coming too. do i love him? yes. is this going to work out? we both know its inevitable, not to mention that fact that we both want different things. he doesnt understand how i want to pursue my dreams, he calls them, "pipe dreams'...he wants me to get a job, and that be that. i want to do fun things, i want to travel, i want to work in entertainment...whatever you know?? ok im going to sleep now!