friday night

Last night was lame, as always. Of course, Mike worked today, (saturday), so he was tired last night. We did go out to eat, but mike always wants to go to hibachi, or places like red robin or friendlys. i dont want to eat at those places you know! im sick of hibachi! i want to try new places. but we went there anyways. and i ate so much of course! wonton soup (which i always get), and i hate getting the hibachi because it is filling but i always get it bcuz mike always gets in line for it. i like getting clams, sushi, kimchi, bok choy, soup, salad, etc. im just sick of going to hibachi all the time!!!! and i am getting sick of mike. hes just boring. i am sick of life. i want to feel excitement, i think i would like to start seeing a new guy too, someone new, someone exciting, someone fun and interesting and who has energy and good energy! someone that makes me feel exciting, alluring, sexy! i dont know haha but yeah, mike just...its just gotten very boring with us. and i want a cozy place to live. its not cozy there anymore. of course i do love marble the loving cat. IM JUST BORED OF MIKE! IM BORED OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need something new, something fun, exciting! plus, eventually yes, i do want a baby. i mean, i am not getting any younger. i want to be able to get married too. so anyways, of course, mike dropped me off at my parents. i could of just stayed there but i didn't really want too. my parents were gone for the night so i thought maybe jimmy wanted to come up and hang out but hes lame too. i wish my car worked or i would of tried to find something to do. i dont really have anyone cool to hang out with tho thats the thing!!! ugh!! anyways, so jimmy was texting me about having a fire by the river but it was so cold i told him to come up to the house we could have a few beers but i was so stuffed from all the food i just had, plus i didnt really want to drink at my parents house. but he came up with a backpack full of beer and 40s so we had one there but i couldn't find anything to watch on youtube. i can't really get along with jimmy unless im buzzed at least otherwise its like talking to someone on a different level than you, you know what i mean? he said a friend from just up the road had ppl over so we could go there and hang out. i was like sure so we walked up to 3rd street to the house across from jen b's old house. this was back in the 90s tho when i used to hang out there, me and lisa. (blast from the past), i used to baby-sit jen b. when i was in 7th or 8th grade and we would have chicken nuggets and tater tots and watch saved by the bell. we would also play 'sorry' and games like uno. the house was dark and had a sinister feel to it, especially the attic which was her bedroom and painted pepto bismol pink. she had a tire swing too. back to the future: so, we went to the house across from hers, and went downstairs to the basement. of course it was younger kids, (19-23 years)....they were sitting around in a typical basement/bedroom recroom whatever, x box had on a selection of netflix movies, and they asked which movie to watch, "office space or the big lebowski' i never seen big lebowski i have seen office space. they chose big lebowski and wanted to turn it into a drinking game everytime someone said, "dude". you know, a few things i just wanted to blog about and take note of..(i dont know why this is just how i am!!) you know, when kids are younger, you drink mixed drinks of some sort of vodka with soda or some sort of flavored drink, like UV whatever that is? ok a few things, jimmy is 29 almost 30 and he is still very immature. when i used to date glenn, ok? when i was 19-23 about, ((on and off)) it was cool because at least glenn was interesting and we all would have interesting topics to talk about i mean, sure we were younger but it wasnt lame!!! the girls last night were sipping on svedka and sprite and UV drinks, and someone was passing around a bottle of jameson whiskey. oh jimmy knows these guys because of his younger brother who is 21. but jimmys maturity level is still at around that age. NOT TO BE MEAN THO! LOL, just saying is all! like, when i was 23 even, i could hang out with high school kids or go to high school parties which i often did because i was dating glenn who was 3 years younger and he had friends who still had high school friends etc..you know? (oh yeah glenn eventually cheated on me with heather who was 16 and he was like, 20. what a loser! then he got her pregnant and he is forever stuck with her)...shes probably 26 or 27 now who knows? but he used to call me when he was with her too and i would hang out with him. not anymore, hes in texas somewhere. one of the girls there, who was 19, is going into the air force. i remember when i was that age my mentality was way different than now. i mean, i used to drink mixed drinks or take swigs of vodka (gross!) or even that mad dog 20/20 wine or boones wine or long island iced teas or avalanche or goldschlagger shots or vodka soaked watermelon or screwdrivers or cranberry and vodkas or bay breezes etc..(uck! i cant drink like that anymore!!). first time i got drunk i was 16 and it was on my birthday and i had 3 or 4 beers. i havent gotten drunk again until i went into the army and i would drink like aforementioned. you know, i also wanted to say, jimmy later told me that he liked the 19 year old girl and that she wanted him, (which i honestly did not see, he was an unimpressive idiot, drunk squidbillies style, and she was talking on the phone with her boyfriend too.) but
 it did make me think, when i was young, it kind of felt good but in a weird way to get attention from an older guy, (attractive)....i started getting attention i guess, when i was 13 but i did not like it! i hated when older guys even looked at me you know, its just creepy! ((i was thinking of writing all this last night but i didnt)) also got weird attention from teachers you know. when i went into the army i got alot of attention but from cute guys i even hooked up with this hot air force guy, (this was at the presidio of monterey california) who had silver hair like richard gere. i was 18 he was in his 30s but for some reason it was hot you know? i think younger girls can be attracted to older guys because it does feel good to get attention, especially from someone older, and it feels kind of weird but in a good way i guess...but you see, now that i am older, (in my 30s) i would never be into someone who is 18,19, early 20s even mid 20s. im just not on that level anymore, which is why i question guys who are trying to get with younger girls, (unless they just think they are easy). but i think jimmys maturity level is still at 24 and plus he just wants girls girls girls any girls. he always tells me i look good but i ignore it ha! sorry im not into him that way! i think jimmy was drunk anyways. we all stopped paying attention to the movie. oh yeah, one girl that looked like a prettier version of sanjana jon/rosario dawson was sipping on her UV drink and the guy who lived there, (who really did look like eminem)...i didnt tell them that but i thought it LOL if i was more drunk i would probably tell them tho....but they both liked each other, but it got annoying because the other two girls that were there started texting on their phones, slumped on the couch, ((they cant hang!)) the one girl asked if i wanted a cigarette i was like sure it was a marlboro red, thats another thing, i used to smoke marlboro reds when i was 18 and 19, (i thought they looked cool, cowboy killers!). oh my goodness. it was freezing outside. we went back inside and it was all quiet and lame and boring and the girls were all sleeping. it was just beat and i wanted to go home maybe have a few beers and chill. it was like, 230 am i think. so jimmy left with me we walked to my parents house and i attempted to drink but i wasnt feeling it. jimmy was drunk tho and annoying and i didnt want to find youtube we listened to classic rock radio station and ate pistachios but he was getting annoying telling me to put on tight jeans so he could see my butt and telling me my hair looked good. i kept saying, "well, im going to go to sleep now" but it took FOREVER for him to take the empty cans and put in the plastic bag for crying out loud! i tried putting on some funny videos which he didnt acknowledge also tried to put on illuminati videos but he was so out i dont think he would even remember today. so finally he got his stuff and left so i went upstairs to go to sleep. this was like, almost 4am! i woke up at 830 because i could not breathe!!! that marlboro red really messed me up! it took me a little over an hour to go back to sleep. i went to sleep only to have a dream about a zoo i had, with a moat full of scary underwater creatures, and in the middle was a cage with little baby giraffes. the giraffes were screaming and crying and even trying to open the cage door, but these awful creatures were in the water swimming around. (ive had dreams about scary sea creatures in cages before). well one of the giraffes got out and it killed some of the other creatures, which happened to be wearing marge and homer halloween costumes. it was a very weird dream. i also kept dreaming my parents were home, but they didnt get home till about noon im assuming. i actually woke up at 130! right before i woke up, i felt a man grab my shoulders and say, "Lori".  the voice was somewhat gentle. i wonder who it was?

so, i think thats it. its funny, see, you know how lame and boring my life is when i go into detailed explanation of an otherwise lame and boring night! HA!!!!