irritated

im in an irritated mood! it's just everything in my life right now! it's being stuck on the freaking couch every day, either at mikes or at my parents. it's not doing anything to better myself. if is because im not eating healthy, it is because i have no money, it's because i feel so gross and i feel like we are towards the end of these dire times, in this dire world! it is because i can't even afford to buy myself a few drinks at lisa's bachelorette party, or pay my car insurance, or.....or..just everything...

for one, moss wants me to pay him back. sure i do too, but i told him NOT to cash the check because i have no money in my account. i thought i would but unemployment ceased my benefits because of that stupid salad works job. they said they need a letter from them saying i no longer work there, so when i called salad works, he says to fax in the letter. i called the other salad works on accident and he was fine and accomodating, he said sure he could write a letter! until he realized i called the wrong saladworks, so when i called the weird saladworks, the guy says to first fax in the letter, so i did that. when i called to see if they received it, the lady who answered said yes. i said, 'can i speak to the manager?" she says, 'i am the manager"...ok well, i just wanted her to make sure she understood what i needed them to do. she didn't seem very helpful nor did she question me. i just needed a letter written, and mailed to the unemployment office! so i called the PA.UC office when i saw i did not receive my benefits like i usually do. they were helpful by telling me that i should just write a letter explaining what what happened, (i also told them due to hurricane sandy i was not able to get the information sent out in time, which is true)....and i also made a copy of the pay stub for the 4 days i worked at salad works and a copy of their letter too in case they needed to reference so they said they will call saladworks so hopefully this all sorts itself out. what else? oh yeah, this past monday jimmy wanted to go to riverside so i was like ok, so we went and he said he was going to pay me back so he owes me 40.00 now i need that money. it was lame. i didn't mention it because why should i? i got bored of talking to jimmy tho, he doesn't follow my explanations he cuts in and stuff, he means well tho. explanations about syncs and sacrifices, it becomes annoying when people don't truly listen tho. it was 1.00 beer night. we bought some beers to go but i only had 1 or 2 afterwards and i wasnt feeling it. end of the night we sat closer to people, jimmy made it seem like the owners were doing coke and was going to give us some? i dont know? whatever i dont need that shit! i tried talking to these guys i guess but they just ignored me, (like i said, im gross nowadays)...i probably was really weird and annoying. i shouldn't of even went out that night. jimmy always msgs me to hang out and drink. its too cold to sit around a fire, and i hate coming home smelling like smoke and having to pee in the woods, during the summer its game but not when its chilly out! plus jimmy wants to play with my hair or something weird when hes drunk haha! i dont mind if there is internet then we can watch a bunch of truther videos! otherwise seems rather pointless. so now i don't have money! and lisas bachelorette party is tomorrow....my parents gave me 60.00 for dinner tomorrow, they are so nice. my mom has been buying me clothes, shoes, high heels, spanx, pantyhose, a clutch purse, a bra, dresses...i really do appreciate it! not to mention we still need to get the maid of honor dress too! i have just been feeling very depressed and irritated! i thought my car was fine turns out its not. i was able to start the car so my parents were following me, only to see that GAS was leaking out of the tank! so there is a hole or something in my gas tank or perhaps the fuel line! ughh another thing! i know once i am able to drive my car again i will be happy. so yeah...all of this just leads me into this spiral of irritation, depression etc.....what else? oh i subscribed to the ispy butterfly page on facebook. at first i was able to leave comments, which i did, but then i realized that i couldn't but other people still could. i never left any disrespectful comments, these are all comments that i found helpful, i never talked about me at all or any of the weird things that has happened to me, (not on that page at least), so i saw i could add her so i did. she accepted my friends request but now i see i cant find her. so i go on my other facebook account and shes still there, so she had to of blocked me. why? i would like to know what i did to cause me to be blocked? yes this irritates me! is it because i have symbolic type pics on facebook? its so hard NOT to have symbolic pics of facebook nowadays. its so hard NOT to have opinions you know? does it make me a bad person because i blog about things, maybe sometimes mean-spirited things about say, scarlett johanzen or courtney stodden? so what? this is how i am. you know? yeah maybe she found this blog, whatever. is it because i link to thedirty.com sometime? whatever!??! all of this just freaking IRRITATES me! and i'm done with facebook. im just sick of it.