back at the airport!

oh what am i doing here, i wonder, as i am sitting here...actually, it doesn't matter. its a job, for now, and its like i am basically getting payed to be on the internet, so why not? right??? and now its a normal chair instead of the uncomfortable stool i used to have to sit on. there is also a space heater, (which i don't really need, i just shut it off, too hot!), i brought in taco bell but i can just start eating salads for dinner, or sandwiches i prepare. no microwave but there is some sort of cookie oven? i don't know!??? i'm not sure what my schedule will be, i think weds-sun 12-8...or something who knows? whatever! eventually i want to get a job in the pharmacy, because that is what i went to school for after all, right? exactly!!!! they also have soup here too now, like lentil and chicken noodle. i just need some sort of income, you know what i mean?? seriously!!! oh, its funny because tiffany and christina asked me about the E! investigates show, they recognized me. i don't mind talking about it at all, you know? its just not something i tell people about unless they ask. its so weird, last time i was working here, i would have books and i was studying for my tests, doing homework etc...now all of that sort of seems pointless you know? its like, 'why did i even go to school?' then i think of the 2 months at heartland, which was a good job if not for that BITCH suzette. she seriously made it seem like i was just some sort of tree, who stood there, JUST BECAUSE she did not like me, because i just wanted to get away from her. that one day when she was helping me with the eaches, and the label made it look like it was one number instead of what it was, (you couldnt even see it), and her being right next to me i was all nervous, and i counted the wrong amount of meds and she yelled at me, and then she went to the pharmacist and i heard her whispering about me. she would talk about others too, saying things like, "oh no, she has got to go", stuff like that. she made it a very uncomfortable environment, and people like colin who slacked off was on her good side because he kisses her butt...whatever right? sigh...i'm just still really upset about that, when later that day she got on my case because i set the ties for the bin on the table instead of holding them in my hand while tying, (which btw, would cramp up your hands when you have to tie them plus hold a bunch of ties and as the ties got less, you had to grip less and therefore, cramps in the hand)...in my defense, she gave me 2 weeks notice ok? and I MADE SURE i showed i was a good worker. i made sure that i was on point, on cue, i would help out everyone, i DID NOT make mistakes, i felt confident in my work, i was pleasant, i did everything and more to show i wanted to keep my job there, but basically she, "just wanted me out"...and she wasnt even paying attention to me being a good worker.  PA is an 'at will' state, meaning if they dont like you, they can just get rid of you. and suzette did not like me! shes a bigwig over there, shes been there over 20 years! wow imagine that as a life! good grief! i bet she has a good 401 k tho, right! NANNY LAUGH!!!!(listen to me, like a bitter soul forget about that).anyways! i wish i had externed at a hospital because working at a hospital would be great. the only thing is, no one ever calls me for even an interview, and it is because of my work history. like i said numerous times before, i am capable of being a good worker! i always get to work on time, i strive for the best i can do, i NEED to multi-task, i need to do everything i have to with no mistakes in key time, i cannot stand doing NOTHING! i mean, here, whatever you know, its one of those slacker jobs. well, it is. i'm not planning on staying here forever. gosh, i might even go back to school so i can find something i am actually proud of! what i do like to do is create! ever since i was a child, i have always been CREATIVE! i need to spend more time writing too! i want to publish children's stories as well!!! i also like holistic stuff, and possibly massage therapy. i don't know??! something. ya know??? im sick of feeling like, blah!!!!!!!! i want to start painting too. moss keeps saying, move back to LA and pursue entertainment. yeah! when we were leaving his place one day last week or whatever, he was like, "Lori, work in entertainment!" so i yelled out, "HOLLYWOOD PLEASE, HIRE ME!" (like its that easy!) YES HIRE ME THEN! ENTERTAINMENT!!!! im here till 8....we went out last night for a little bit, i would like to go out tonight tho? i dont work tomorrow.