saturday

I sit here, pondering.

"Mike's a jerk." I constantly hear replay in my head, "Mike's just a jerk!"

THAT...he is! I am sick of his emotional abuse bullshit! He is just...I don't know. So, he texted me either Wednesday...wait actually...I think I need a nap. Sure it is 1pm ish but yeah, i think i need a damn nap! BRB

ok i took a nice nap...(woke up like 3 hours ago tho)...i put on the heat from this portable heater got under the blankets fox news was on (of course) which i lowered and just napped for like, 2 hours. even tho the phone rang a few times...house phone. it was my parents calling for me to check on the kerosene stove in the kitchen.

anyways....so yeah, mike asked me to go to dinner friday night so i was like, 'ok'...so my dad got my car to work yesterday!!! which im happy about! (you know what is annoying. i add these foreign ppl i have no idea who they are. my parents say i shouldnt add them. then they continuously try to msg me and small talk me. they dont stop either. its annoying! i closed my fb page and i just saw this person tried to call me after me not replying back! this is when i block them!

so he comes to get me, hes like ,'come on lets go' DOESNT even say hi or whatever...so then he just wanted to get burger king! we could of went out to a restaurant but actually he promised me we would go out later that night to a bar or something. i mean, it was friday night you know?? who cares!? so i was like ok burger king then we go out later.

sigh. so i guess scott was coming in to town because he had to practice with his band. he takes the bus into easton and mike picks him up he hangs out with us crashes in the basement then he gets a ride to his practice. so last night mike went to get him i stayed home watched something on lifetime and grabbed a yuengling, (the east coast beer!). scotts bus ran late so it was like, 1030 almost 11pm. they get back and scott wants a beer. hes all chatting about the transportation all last week due to sandy and how it took him 3 hours to get to his job from brooklyn to manhatten where he works at a bank. when he got to work they sent him home he was upset about that. he changed out of his work clothes into his 'rock star garb' consisting of black pants with metal and grommets (idk!??) a motorhead shirt and his leather motorcycle jacket. and his boots i guess. haha. he also hairsprayed his hair with the gross matrix i think, hairspray i aint ever use later he mentions how he uses aussie that smells like apples or something i forget!? he wanted to go out too. he kept asking me if i got any girl friends. i always get asked that when im with my guy, and his friend comes over, unfortunately, no..i dont...not any cute single girl friends...sorry!? maybe mallory would of liked him hes her type, but well, who knows where she is???

so we get into the truck. mike suggest fat jacks but when he goes there parking lot is full so he says too crowded we go downtown (this is like, 11pm). so we go downtown we park rather far. i get irked because...i get IRKED! i always find close spots you know why!??! BECAUSE I LOOK! mike assumes there will be no close spots so he parks far...

oh yes i almost forgot. when we were trying to establish whether we would go out..well, scott and i were casually chatting and we were like, 'yeah, lets go out!' then mike marches in, stands, rather HOVERS over me. "Lori, lets get this out of the way' he goes..."you cannot stay up till 4 in the morning tonight' just the way he talks down to me i cant stand! very mean. he even made comments like, 'you got to tell them whose boss' -about women, to which scott replies, "Yeah but its a relationship its not a boss/employee thing' ((talking about kimmy not trying to sell the car or the camper or something they are in the midst of a divorce yet she is taking her good ol' time with her new boyfriend hwhiskey jones...lol))

but mike basically made me feel like crap even scott was saying, 'come on mike, lets just go out i want to hang out with both you guys'.

so as i said, we parked far then he called me a bitch or something because i was like, 'you park so far', so i called him a mumbling ogre. we didnt go to eddie g's we went to mothers. i suggested sitting at this table all the way at the end which was on top of a platform for some reason and the only view was the preppy just turned 21 idiot boys playing quoits and pool. sorry i said! scott bought a pitcher of beer to which we shared but went outside to talk on the phone. in the meantime, mike was sitting there arms crossed looking like he was PO'd...i tried talking to him but no matter what i asked or said he would reply with an attitude. for instance, "i told scott sorry i chose this table"...in which he replied, "i dont like going out im not 21 anymore".

then he started telling me that i need to make sacrifices and that i have not proven myself to him...i am SO sick of hearing this! reciprocity...whatever else he says...ughh!! hes a killjoy!

so yeah he sort of just sat there....looking miserable. scott came back i said to him, "look its aubrey!" there was a girl that actually sort of looked like aubrey too same haircut he squinted to see (he wasnt wearing his glasses) he asked mike, 'is that aubrey?" mike didnt play along, "no its not'...

mike! it would of been funny then he tried to play along but it was too late. we sat closer to the bar than where it was warmer and we chatted. scott asked why isnt mike having fun i said hes always like that. im starting to get a good buzz from the pitchers of beer but mike wants to leave so we say we are going to go to pickled egg. as he was closing the tab i saw the aubrey lookalike so i told her to say go to scott and say, "Hi Scott" so she does and starts talking to us, but scott later tells me, "lets go' because he says he saw her kissing her boyfriend. so we up and outta there...

mike drops us off at pickled egg so we can pick up some beer and we also got two pinnacle shots YUM! i love those! so we all sit in the basement but mike is just watching tv. he made himself a drink i wanted to connect the internet to the tv so i did we watched that one video, 'sentimental lady' (im going to make a blog about that singer later) that scott likes haha. well then mike goes to sleep and i wanted to still hang out but scott said he was tired which is cool because im sure he doesnt want to get mike upset and i dont either so i was like, ok and tried to pull out the futon for him to sleep on but it didnt pull out so whatever. i went upstairs and went online..(drunk posting on facebook...ugh, yeah! not a good idea! but i wanted to chat and i was feeling chatty but not private msging just...i wanted to be social you know?) i get bored! it was probably midnight...maybe later i dont know? i need to know what time it is by the timestamp on facebook. doesnt matter. i got on facebook for a little bit, till the monster got out of bed...

well i hid the drunk thread from timeline so i cant find it but still, i was being quiet. i had on the headphones and was sitting on the couch. mike gets up to yell at me. i go to lay down on the bed i think i wanted to have sex with him ha! i dont know? but he didnt want too...so im not sure if i went back online or what? i forget...i just know that i was laying down with the blankets on and he gets up and says, "get up. im taking you home" i dont know what time it was but i just wanted to go to sleep. he wanted to take me home i had to beg him not too. hes just a jerk. "Mike's just a jerk", i hear replaying in my head. moss told me that.

so thats that. ugh...anyways, i need a damn shower.