pizza

i am boiling with all kinds of ideas i want to write about, however, i need peace of mind to actually bring words flowingly to keypad. firstly, however, i feel that i should sort of write, for my benefit if anything, the kind of synchronicities or what not...i guess that i experienced as of yesterday. so, i didnt do much. i really am not drinking..so my plans were not trying to figure out how to drink..but of course, my plans also werent about hearing mike SNORE so loudly!! distracting me!! (oh go ahead and copy and paste this so that moss can file  this away in his mike complaint files)...

so i went to mikes, cuz i wasnt sure what else to do ya know!?? i dont really hang out with anyone, but it doesnt matter i guess, oh i need to get a job or something.  i cant exist this way anymore..really. i dont want anyone concerned about me, but the truth is, it gets lonely, but i would rather be alone and squirrel away...idk

so anyways, mike doesnt have enough money to really go out, so he said he would order a pizza. i did just have pizza a few days prior, when i visited kim and my aunt and uncle and avi and the new baby...but that was ok whatever. pizza wasnt even good...blegh. too hot and the cheese was dripping off, and the sauce was that kind of sauce that clumps up and brings about tummy aches. i like a good pizza when its been sitting out for a while, i dont like fresh from the oven piping (PIper) hot pizza, i like when the cheese doesnt slide off, i like a bit of orange grease, i like when you can neatly fold the pizza without cheese or sauce dripping out, i like when the bottom is dusted with pizza dough dust and a bit of char from the pizza oven...

so...then, we went back we rented two movies...one was a scarlett johanssen movie that mike picked out. i kind of wanted to watch it too, but mike likes to tease me with scarlett johanssen. i explained to him that the more he watches her movies, the more familiarized his alpha male easily persuaded mind will be apt to feel as if he can see her being someone, with her cute quirks and all, as someone that um.........hmm.......idk, someone he just starts feeling more and more comfy with mizz scarlett.....mizz scarlett, tara needs some fixin uppin here!!??!

like, mike will see her more and more, her confused look since most of her roles are of her not even being a human, but that of a confused lost, humanoid of sorts...struggling to comprehend how it is to feel human emotions...of course, scarlett johansen in real life just does what she is told....so she relates..i understand womens rights, but you know...its a touchy subject

btw all i want is my own place!! so i can freely type up blogs instead of hearing his snores that is maing me nervous because the more i try to think about something witty to write, to hear a loud sleep apnea snore.

ozUGHH i just saw it highlight and i hit a button and it froze before it deleted the paragraph i just wrote.........i said oh yeah i am straying from the subject...lets get back to the subject shall we so yes scarlett johanssen (this computer is annoying deleting paragraphs for me!? what buttons do that anyways?) the movie we got was under the skin with scarlett johansse, sort of a sci-fi (whispers stupid) movie boring!!?!?! dumb im gonna read reviews for it to see other ppls interpretations and what not...

well mike of course started falling asleep so i stayed up to watch orange is the new black. i didnt want to stay up too late bcuz next day was my cousin kevin and his wifes baby ryann's 1st bday but i have been getting wicked coughs, the kind where you cough so much it is embarrassing and you almost have to throw up and it seems to act up when you are around ppl and your face turns super red and its just awful. when we went to the pizza place i had to go to the bathroom cuz i started coughing like that...oh yah we brought home the leftover pizza

so when we got back i had drank some nyquil nighttime that my parents dropped off with some nasal spray since my nose was clogged (mike made me sick because he coughs all over the place) well after the movie i just kind of fell asleep, (well because he was sleeping too), and i was feeling tired, but then i woke up and wanted to watch some shows like orange is the new black. one of the episodes ended, so i went to check my fb from my cell phone, and i saw a post real quick from the aqua teen page, it said, 'get outta' so at that point it made me subliminally think, 'get outta my head, and into my car' right? (remember, night before i had those synchs??? with the picture i had with the sunglasses pulled down like i saw a hot peice of ass, and i went oooHHH!!! hey YOU! ' then, "hey me!?" 

 yeah YOU!!! get out my head!! get outta my head, and into my car! and then later family guy played that episode, so yeah naturally...um...i thought of that...it says get outta my way you ORANGE whore...so orange, i was watching orange is the new black!??! whore!???! really f* you cup!!

well some guy was like 'coincedence' (yah really) then he posted a pic of an ORANGE....CAR!! "get out of my head, and into my car!" ((i screencapped it))

so 

so idk, is it a coincedence?? so i was like WTH and commented something like this cough syrup is messin with my head...

then i put on another episode of OITNB, and it was an episode called, 'at least you have a pizza', and you have a pizza or something like that....well i was watching, and the KP (kitchen) KP is how we call it in basic training...she gave the guard a cookie shaped like a penis (it was a valentines day one), and the guard gobbled the dick all fast for some reason..so then..it stopped netflix did, and the title came up, 'and you have a pizza'..so i was like, 'dick? and i have a pizza?" and i thought about it..'you have a dick, A DICK A DICKHEAD/DOUCHEBAG OGRE!! and hey at least i have a pizza too (there was pizza left over in the fridge)

i noticed something weird too the one girl used the term 'wicked' to describe something, and i had posted using that term i said i have a wicked cough...just thought that was weird...

mike is now telling me to go to sleep he woke up and HE IS NOW ON THE COUCH SO THAT MEANS HIS SNORES ARE EVEN CLOSER TO ME!??! than he is telling me to go to sleep at 2 o clock. id rather sleep on the couch then on the bed tho...

that was last night tho. i wanted to write about tonight but his snores are just too close...i cant even freaking think now!!

oh fine!! i woke up late, and realized i was supposed to be ready for the party, but i was sick and i knew if i was around people i would start engaging in coughing spells because that is just how it works..and babies were there so i didnt want to be all coughing around...

oh im going to contine the rest of the story tomorrow, (not that it is an exciting story tho)

i didnt drink tonight tho. i didnt drink last night either. i actually have not drank for the past month!! (actually yes i drank one night...and felt like shit the next day)..also yes, i had two small beers at the old man bar the other day...

but one time out of a month!?? thats pretty good i think!?? see, i dont mind not drinking! just wish i had someone to chill and watch movies or shows with doesnt start snoring or making comments at the actresses and stuff...

i hang out with jay sometimes but he is always busy with his daughter too...and i usually want to drink when i hang out with him..i dont know why? i used to live at mikes so its like my place but not realy this place is too dark and dull i just like then i wouldnt mind having company but yeah, blah..il save my rants for tomorrow