nutrition and stuff

My thryoid levels are going down, which is good. It started out very high (this was this Friday) it was over 700 now it is down to 357 or something. I have just been taking 25 mcgs of levoxythyroxin. I have only been taking it for 4 days too!??! For a while I was taking 100 mcgs of levoxy but I stopped. Now I have to up it to 50 mcgs. I will still need to get drs script sent to the pharmacy for more meds. Good news, I do have medicaid now. 

Ok, so nutrition...native americans, well.....in canada, alot of indians have diabetes. I remember as kids, whenever I would go to Canada, we would have so much fun going to the store with a loonie (a canadian coin equal to a dollar. 1 of dollar equals 4 of coin (lol! steve brule) but we would get the best candies, and chips. i love canadian candy, gummies, sours, chocolates, chips etc. even the toast and margarine was so good! and we would drink tang drinks, extra powder. we would have porridge with mounds of brown sugar for flavor. milk with loads of nesquick. skin of french fries with ubiqitous amounts of white vinegar, smothered poutine! no one cared much about nutritious, except for our friend karen. her dad, pierre (who was my parents friend), he was a body builder type obsessed with pink floyd and arnold schwareneggar. they had a gym in the basement. i remember that house. ((walk back in memory time)) memory lane. we used to walk to karens house. well, as kids, my cocoom used to live way back...where the backyard was essentially the woods. oh my gosh just thinking about it is bringing back a different time!! a time where things felt magical for me! 

i started watching labyrinth, and heavy metal was the type of music everyone was focused on. metallica, alice cooper, guns n roses...well when i was younger we used to listen to glam metal too i guess you can call it...poison....faster pussycat etc. i dont know what year i will choose to focus on, but i do remember my older cousin natalie...well in the first apartment, it was more close to the woods. the woods were that peel off elm trees, the kind of birk you can draw on. the white kind with little black markings on them. there was some lake too, with a little plane that lands in the water. also, there was mucky muck and rocks, huge rocks, with cat-tails. i remember some french girl wanted to, or she did, try to push me into the mud or something!??!

so.......oh its 530 soon i need to start getting ready for work!!!

geez this will be the 9th day in a row i think!?? or 8th day? idk......i work tomorrow and then a 7 hour day on tuesday...wait.uh.....yeah its monday so tonight then tomorrow THEN finally two days off! (christmas time!) i need to get my mom and dad gifts.......i dont know!?? i cant think. i had to go and get bloodwork then i was sitting around at the clinic again. my neck hurts

what was i saying now? oh only one i know really was karen and her family. she used to eat healthy fruits like apples and snack on carrots and stuff because her dad was healthy and into fitness. their gym was in the basement. it had a certain smell to it, the house did.

you know how houses are. some people live in houses that have a certain smell to it. like ham, or......fur...(from say.....deer heads that they caught hunting) i think that is how karens house smelled because they had a deer head. karen also had certain barbie dolls, like the 'stewardess' barbie.

oh yeah my cousin natalie had 'heavy metal' posters and later i thought she had the coolest style. she had spandexy stuff, shirts with cut-outs, you know , that sort of 80s/madonna punky metal look. i need a day OFF! i dont mind going to work but also........its like i want a break too. i still am tired so im not sure if its because i am running around (drs appts, bloodwork, work) or what.......sigh

i forget!?!?

i want to look and see about aloe juice.

benefits about aloe juice. cuz i have been drinking it.

HEALTH BENEFITS OF ALOE VERA JUICE

1. Aids in the elimination of constipation.
2. Aids in digestion and helps with stomachaches and heartburn.
3. Helps to regulate blood sugars.
4. Detoxifies the body and colon.
5. Helps with weight loss by increasing metabolic rate to burn more calories.
6. Improves circulation.
7. Aids in healing damage to internal tissues.
8. Regulates blood pressure.
9. Strengthens immune system.
10. Retards the growth of cancerous tumors.
11. Helps to reduce inflammation.

oh but i noticed the juice may have added sugar. oh kombucha tea has good properties in it as well as kimchi and greek yogurt. good probiotics...or good um....bacterias needed. 

but yeah.....i was just saying how most indians do not understand how important it is to eat properly. i remember my cousin literally drinking vinegar (i wrote about it before)......straight up. oh yeah indians like their beer too. any kind of beer i guess!?? i remember filling up our backpacks with labatts 40s and hornets...(i think it tasted like lemonade), drinking it in the dugouts of the baseball field. we would just grab beer and walk around town...or drink in the playgrounds...walking around at night. or just hanging out.....idk

OH so if you are going to drink vinegar, once again...a shot of APPLE CIDER VINEGAR!! before dinner! and follow with a glass of water!!! before or after i used to work out, i would drink a full bottled water. 

i used to cook with fresh garlic too.........what happened to me!??! i was doing good! i really got into the healthy lifestyle! now im just like........this!

geez it makes me wonder.......i used to be so creative. in fact, if i had my own office and craft room, i would be making crafts, painting, i would be writing, i would be making stories, animations. fun youtube videos! makeup tutorials! 

im just not ready to waste away! im just not!!! 

i just want for once to feel like i am happy. even mike just puts me down all the time. thats not healthy. who wants to hang out with people who bring me up. i mean, actually, im older now. i dont really need friends. yes, i do need one or two good girl friends, and yes i do want to meet someone who wants to get married. i just want a family. 

i need to get another eye exam too. its just hard to see clearly. i dont want to work tonight. i mean, i do but.....i havent got a day off!!! 

i want to get a tattoo. i think next one will be the retro gumball machine on forearm....(i am waiting to get the cool alice/anime girl when i can further afford too)

once i get a good job and weekly paychecks i will start feeling alright with things. i wish i could take a shower but the shower is so weak. this heat sucks too. AHHHHHHHHH i just want my own place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and people that are supportive of me! not including family. 

i think mike needs me in his life but he doesnt want to show it. so he tries to keep me down as to not allow me to feel that i am free, and i CAN do what i want!!! he gets mad if i decide to take a trip or something..........but then he never wants to do anything!? i get bored!

BORED!