stuff

so i need a new job. i mean, i have been working at bonton for over a month and well, i have NOT made SHIT..i mean, this is Part time, but i really am NOT getting enough hours...sure, 4 hours goes by quickly but i need a bigger paycheck! plus, i havent been payed for 10 or 11 hours??! we  get payed biweekly too. i mean...i just...i just want a normal freaking job with normal HOURS! and  a job i do not mind! a job where i go to work, i get breaks, the day goes by, and i get payed...WEEKLY! damn!!! i like warehouse jobs too. i just go to work, do what i have to and leave. i dont really care to make friends.

if i do i do but i want to start SAVING money!!! 

gee freaking WHIZ!!!!!!!!!!! right!??????????????

anyways, this weekend.....mike invited me out to dinner. i had saturday off so i got a shower, put on some makeup..idk. plus he said weston wanted to hang out later that night. he said the tilted kilt. its new. so i thought it would be kind of fun. and weston sometimes likes to go out, like to shrutys. or just hang out at his place and drink and see whats on youtube.

well, we go to tilted kilt, but there is a 45 minute wait, and mike didnt want to wait. i didnt mind i mean, of course its busy its new!?? and it was 8 pm mike said if i got there at 7pm we would of not have waited what? 7 is more of dinnertime then 8? he was just hungry.

he wanted to go to tic toc but then he said kidding then he said diner 247 but i really was hoping not to go. i was in the sort of 'franchise restaurant' mood, like buffalo wild wings or even applebees. something with a bar atmosphere. not a dumb old people/family place. but he was hungry and kept saying, 'im paying' and i was like, 'great i can see where this night is heading'....so i suggested steak and lube but then i was like fine tic toc.

i said well lets go out later than...since i put on makeup and looked ok, even tho mike kept putting down my coat i was wearing..(dickies camoflage mens coat i got from walmart) granted, its not a girly coat..but i cannot afford a nice calvin klein coat...and my mom bought me that coat too. the rest of my outfit was alright!??! 
hes just mean. so after we ate diner mush food, (fried clam strips and fries. i also had soup and salad...nothing special)...we went to his house...(i miss having my own place but that place does not feel like my place anymore. its his place. any remnant of it ever being my place is gone..forgotten...)

anyways, we smoked some good herbs and he fell asleep he said at 11 we will go out. weston was beat so he was staying in. mike kept sleeping. finally we walked to pints and pies. he said i get first round. i wanted to sit at another table bcuz mike chose a table in the corner. i wanted to look at ppl. mike started getting crabby. then he didnt even sit across from me. he kept looking at his cell phone. i wanted to try and talk to him but he avoided eye contact with me nor did he move forward in a way most people do when they are interacting with each other. we were surrounded by jolly people laughing and talking amongst each other but here i was with mike and a sour look on his face, yelling at me and saying he wants to go home after that drink.

why do i keep hanging out with him? hes a prick! why cant i just have NORMAL people to hang out with!??!? he even went to the bathroom and disappeared on me. i was sitting at the table finishing my 2 beer and he went out the side door after he got out of the bathroom.

i felt so embarrassed, but i bought a 6 pack to go. (i payed for all the drinks. he ordered a red bull and vodka which is expensive too)..tick tock was a cheap dinner and i bought drinks i spent 20.00. if i had more money i would not mind but i am NOT making money now! i just wanted to go back and watch youtube by myself. it was like, 1am...

when i got back he was laying in bed and he apologized for leaving me and i guess he felt bad. its just embarrassing showing up with him at pints and pies. why cant he just be normal? why does he have to act like a foul dick? gross

whatever! and i always pay for beer with money i do not have!

i just.......if we would of rented a movie he would of fell asleep!!! sigh!!!!

anyways....i saw it was 4 in the morning before i knew it. i didnt drink all the beer but i still have 2 beers there. i doubt i will want to hang out with him anytime soon it is always the same thing!!

i work every day for the next 9 days, (i worked tonight too). i dont have a day off!??!

i was in mens tonight it was SO SLOW!! i actually went home early. they said i could.

so synchronicty someone said something about the purge....and while i was seeing that one part in purge anarchy...elite and how they do, i heard on 'the office', i need to PURGE my email

then...i shared a link about OH OH i was trying to think what commercial was it and guess what, its like the tv answered because that PINE SOL commercial came on reminding me! there was a link about celebrities who stink, apparently a bunch like johnny depp, megan fox, jennifer aniston, matthew mc conahey, britney spears and more do not take showers for days..ending up stinking. so, pine sol commercial comes on when im posting about that in the MK groups, and it says, CLEANING WHAT STINKS (i forgot what it was an at that moment that commercial came back on to remind me!??!)

i work tomorrow from 3-7pm...kids/ not bad really...i should go to bed tho! i want to wake up early...enough of sleeping till 2 in the afternoon!! im going to play my candy crush for a bit its 2 am now.