So......I just can't. I can't do this anymore. I cannot take feeling the way I do at this job. It's just not worth it! ok, so please, allow me to explain...(it is almost 4:30 in the morning but I dont care. I am off work and that is all that matters.) See, normally, while yes, I sigh as I walk to work, it is never to such an extreme degree of uncomfort....ehh..i take that back. i recall a few jobs where i felt levels of uncomfort. one of them was at heartland pharmacy, (where i know i did a good job, but i didn't fall on queen suzettes good side)...and she claims to of been native american? well...whatever LOL.....she was, yeah.......her life will consist of her working 20+ years at the same job, stuck in a world. i mean, i aint puttin down no one with a family, kids, family...this and that, but please have common courtesy and respect for others. we are not all going to be the same ok? we don't all adapt to the workhounds around us, or UNworkhounds......
forget about heartland, i dont work there anymore. forget about the perez hilton lookalike and all those women the lady i used to sit next to at the call center warned me about too, when that guy tried to claim some lady that had her little cubicle played farrah fawcetts sister in charlies company. that was not true fool!
just because i don't play and pretend at work does not mean i am not a good worker. i know i am. ok......i am getting a bit tired, but i still feel exasperated by how SILLY i think people are! from freaking HOLLYWOOD SHIT, THE ELITE, (who seem to think they can just take out anyones life or act all threatening hoity toity when uh huh you dun wronged someone ) what!?? im so sick of silly sillly people being USED! conducted!?? and guess who is laughing!?? YOU know who!!!
yeah so hollywood bullshit, elite, all the way to the monarchy of the castle, WHITE CASTLE that is! heh!
i just want to go to work, my job, and do what i have to do. i do not want to be disrespected or made to feel uncomfortable in any way. i do not care if people want to act silly or what not, but i have been adding up all the wrong with this particular white castle.
see, ok..i see it as a high school job, yes, but also older people work there as well. when i first got hired, the main manager (who is gone on vacation) told me, to come to her if ANYONE makes me uncomfortable. no one judges anyone based on age, race, or sexual orientation, which i agree on thoroughly. now that being said, i am not saying anything bad about those who choose to work at fast food restaurants. i worked at a bunch.
however, when i worked at them, (as i have been working at white castle, i am recollecting and comparing them to other jobs i had working in fast food industry) everything had a specific goal or task to be done.
this place, is like a big chicken coop! it is not specific at all! for instance, this place doesnt have any law or ordiance. we are not assigned to stations, i mean yes it doesnt get busy, but we all sort of navigate, or rather, gather, in the fryer grill area. and while some of us WANT to find things to keep busy, others would rather chit chat and make jokes, and whisper about how other people are struggling with the cash register, of which has never been properly or thoroughly explained, or given enough time to someone to feel comfortable enough with the buttons.
im tired. im going to continue this bullshit tomorrow. but yeah, i cant! the hours are fucking crazy and i feel humiliated working here.
i came home, looked up at the stars. the stars are so beautiful. i want to study astronomy so that i know each star structure and cluster. i do know the basics, but i would like to know more you know? stars do not judge us. i mean, i know there is some sort of alignment with the stars and the earth, and that the freemasons are the slaves to those who understand this alignment to open up doorways or portals to the other dimensions, but i do not think those should be open up!??
are we really supposed to be evil? is it in mans nature to be evil? conniving? insecure? silly???
i am going to link up some video i briefly seen a week or so back. showing how silly humans are.
are we supposed to appear and talk threatening, while wearing our robes and smoking our cigars, showing off our beautiful mansions and our outdoor home theaters, or our comraderie with other folks, as we play and conduct a shakespearian like play of crying foul and murder?
who is ANYONE to conclude that they are responsible for the blood of anyone else? blood spilled, on THEIR hands!?? who does anyone think they are, which makes them the responsible one for these doings??
sigh im going to bed. more on this later....
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