hey

its a beautiful day outside, a gorgeous, warm fall day. perfect to take a walk and enjoy the shedding of the leaves, all orange and crunchy. i would be thrilled to feel the light gentle breeze whisper past me as i walk like a creature admist the foliage, a beast stuck between a hellish realm and a truly beautiful one, scared yet envious. as i finish my perogies, i wonder if my parents understand nutrition. last night we had chinese food. i love the fact that the food i eat makes me the most miserable. it does wonders for the growing thryoid i can feel, neighboring my growing chin of disgust and my harboring tooth of pain. I want to enjoy this weather so be it i get in the car with my parents, who, as soon as i walked downstairs, kept insisting on notifying me every 5 minutes about trying norwescap, or making this appointment, or calling this appointment back, or taking this gel to numb my tooth, or to take this tooth filler...or whatever it is. as for nutrition, it is not just something you eat once every so often, it is something you should be incorporating in your every day life, only once in a while you can enjoy a non-nutritious, or beige colored meal.

oh im back. it is such a nice fall day, but i woke up so late. i woke up at 12:30 but stayed in bed and drifted back to a slumber, i felt so heavy and sleep laden that it was too tough for me to just wake up at that point. well, i did get to sleep around 5am.

work comes way to quickly. i like to unwind when i come home, but i get tired out from standing on my feet all day, then i get back around 4am. i hear the mumbles of my mother, in the other room. i will soon be hungry again, but i am afraid to eat! i am not looking forward to having white castle crap either when I get hungry.

it was such a beautiful day out, that i wanted to do something. i didn't want to waste such a nice day, but i also need to write, or I just cannot think!??! i wish my work day would of ended, and id be set for the weekend, instead, i have to work till 3 i the morning. plus mike wants to go to gettysburg tomorrow!??!

i just want to watch 'gone girl' on my day off, and chill. maybe walk around somewhere cool. oh i need to buy tickets for the witches masonic ball!

shit and i wake up so late! like i said, it was touch to shake off all the sleep, then i went downstairs and i attempted to write this blog, but my parents wanted to take a drive to see the foliage. 

now i have little time! my face feels dried out since i didnt moisturize. my nose and throat are itchy....my belly is bloated. i hate that. i used to wake up and my tummy would be tight and taut. now its bloated even tho i didnt eat!?? oh man!!!!

i keep rubbing my nose! i hate this! OK IM going to make a new blog..........

oh i asked jay if he wanted to go to the masonic witches ball this halloween, of course. "oh i think gabby is  coming up" its not that i even care, fine. gabby is coming up. i mean, yes  i think to myself, 'girls in college why does she still want to hang out with her dad' but whatever aint none of my business. and i dont expect him to choose to hang out with me before his daughter, i aint like that. yes, if we had plans than he had to break them, then i would be mad! and he knew i wanted to see the tim and eric show. had we bought tickets then he had to break them because gabby was coming up, then YES i would of been mad! 

i asked mike but mike dont want to go! of course he always wants to go to stupid gettysburg. day off tomorrow and i am now going to gettysburg 10 in the morning. i dont care about gettysburg! hes like AJ!? obsessed with gettysburg?! wtf!??

anyways!! i will be back with the white castle blog!!!