New post, 6/13/12

Hey!! so the summer is here! i absolutly LOVe the summer, (sry for the typos bu t my backspace is not working and i dont feel like stopping to press backspace on this on screen keyboard i have up...guh ugh i hat this!) o i cant even press enter either! when that lady spilled tea on this, it ruined the configuration too. i need to get one of those ud duster things and try to clean this out. this is really irritating! so, like i was saying, oh, i type fast too, thats why its annoying than that when i do a typp i have to stop to click backspace on the onscreen keyboard...im used to just quickly pressing backspace. so like i said, the summer is here. however, im not doing anything! i need a break. i told mike, i need a break. i wanted to go to cananda but my parents arent going...because sage will be here sunday. moss keeps bugging me about h going to LA, there are going to bee ltos of concets, (wow!!) be lots of concerts. this is so stressful typing this way! id i do want to go to LA, but i have no money. i will feel so uncomfortable going there and not having anything nice to wear, or no money to go out because i dammmm well know i am going to go crazy just being around moss all the time! LOL i just will! but its expensive to go out! it is! moss says, "well get you a job here Lori" a job in entertainment, but im like, what job? what job will i get when im only going to be there for a month? i do want to go to the poison/def lepperd concert tho. and warped in las vegas is next week too. i would go if mike stopped making a big deal about me going. mike, i just need a break! i need a break from here. oh i cant afford to take a break im always on a break! this is so discouraging and frustrating!!! everything is! another thing that is really annoying is, well, i was just thinking, i had job offers, well, not job offers but endeavor, ppl contacting me inf in fact this moring morning i got a text from that wrestling this thing in NJ...not interested anyways sorry ! i dont want to do that female wrestling gig or whatever! (its from my model websites), they contact me . remember that guy contacted me about that bachelorette party? 800.00 a weekend thats good money, but id i dont have the personality for that. kicking guys in the balls!??? i just...yeah, im not that outgoiing sorry! im o not going to do something i am not comfortable with. it makes me really feel bad its like, degrading? like, for instance, the website modeling person found me on facebook and now everytime i go on, he msgs me. ok so, like i was saying the other day, (i deleted it tho), he found me on facebook and i was chatting with him, he kept msging me is what, next thing i knew, i was in that room, and it was so weird!?? (i                                                            cant even continuosly press down on the space bar!!! now im at the bottom of the screen and i like open space. this is so annoying!           so  like  i  was                                   saying.... what the heck is going on??? like i was saying!!!! isaying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!       !!!          i  fucking  hate  this!                                              oh my god this is so weird!?? i put a bunch of exclamation points but now when i type, a word appears in the sentence undert neath this one!??? its so distratcting, then after i trype the word, it appears back on the sentence now, its hard to explain! wow! anyways, im just going to keep typing ee even tho i this is very weird? so,, like i was as sawying... next thing i knew, i was live in some room. well, he explains to me that webcam girls make like, 2.99 to 12..00 a mon minute...i cant type like this!!!my dad is going to order a new keyp keyboard and just unscrew this one somehow?? and screw in the new keyboard? oh whatever!!! maybe i will just make a vlog LOL yeah right! i cant type this way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ket me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!try something else ok so now the sentence is appearing normal, albeit i on the bottom of my blogger screen. im hungry! i have eggs, but i dont have toast or bacon or anything to go with it, so boring!! cant wait to get my food stamps i need healthful foods! so the webcam thing is you , being on display, in a room. and alot of guys are freeloaders, like those forums say. they will try to get you to flash them, (which i did not do!!), for free and how do you e attract someone to want to go private with you? again, not my thing...you need to talk out loud and flirt and im jsut not that kind of girl, i dont say things like, "hey handsome hows it going>" and twirl my hair and shit LOL!!! i just thought about how conan acts like when he pretends hes  a girl, wait maybe i can find a link...nevermind i cant find it. ugh but yeah, whatever. plus im too lazy and its uncomfortable its just not for me!!! you need a nice comfy room where you can have the camera facing you and showing your body, which i dont have. i have a coffee table thats low and i keep my laptop on my lap! you need cute outfits, which i dont have. you need sextoys, which i dont have! i did when i went to sex parties, (porn premeire party and stuff in hollywood haha it wasnt actually SEX parties, it was some porn party bcuz moss n knows ron and i brought my friends. it was always interesting. i lost or forgot those sextoys tho...haha! so yea, i wont be a good webcam girl!!! only if i tried, i could..but, too lazy! and i read about rude ppl and stuff, ughh...he told me to look at this model called columbiana or something, so i tried too, she was 'big boobs' lol! but my flash wasnt working so i couldnt see he was like, shes so friendly and a makes everyone feel welcome. and she goes into private asap. wehen i was on, there were alot of pakistani and india handles, and for some reason i get the feeling they arent going to tip or pay...i dont know? the whole thing is just weird. not for me! HAHA! i can be sexy if i want tho, im not saying i cant!! anyways, who cares!??? whats the next subject??? hmm....i dont know? im hungry and need a shower.