story thus far..

Hi...so, I guess, deep breath, i will make a blog post..??? so the story thus far is this, you know last weekend mike and i got into a big fight, friday night he wanted to meet scott and me stay home but i went out with him, saturday night he wanted to go out and have me stay home, but then he didnt end up going out and we both just stayed home, except i was drinking and i stayed up pretty late, probably 5in the morning, drunk and sloppily BLOGGING!! (which i deleted) etc, and since i was banned from adult swim, i blogged!?? ughh hate doing that! well mike of course got me upset when we woke up and we got in a fight this and that. he was sleeping tho!? i wasnt even bothering him! so i kept crying and sometimes i like to wake up and cuddle and have fun, and he goes in the basement to watch tv, so i was so upset i followed him downstairs and he was being so mean to me i looked like a crazy person just crying and asking, "why are you so mean to me?" etc etc...he kept saying, 'go to your parents' (and it was fathers day so i was intending to anyways)...ok? so, finally i calmed down a bit to gather my composure and went to my parents. mike didnt come of course. that was truly a miserable weekend. ok so now, we are going to lisas to see sage! well, i was still upset about mike, when moss calls..(i will once again paste this, for effect)...AHH i cant find it. so moss was like, "Lori, there are so many fun things to do here in Hollywood, you know that? Poison/def lepperd concert, Kandyland..(which i am not going to, i will explain later) ladeedadeedada, et cetera et cetra et cetra....you saw it, i posted it then deleted it. he was like, "come out here or stay there, where NOTHING is going on and all you do is fight and get upset. (which i think too, i want to enjoy myself and my summer)...and mike and i needed a break. i hate to fight! i actually truly DID want to go to canada but that did not work out. remember, moss kept mentioning his concert list, and i really was like, 'alright...so?" ha! i mean, i didnt care. i didnt want to come out to LA you heard me, i said, i need to be PREPARED for LA, meaning, MONEY IN DA BANK!!!! nice clothes that make me feel comfortable. well, when i was in the car moss called me and i was like, "ok than, fine! i will go"....and he got me a plane ticket. i just honestly needed a break, from mike, from the fighting...everything. i know flying out here is not the answer, and i just...tsk. im appreciative and moss wanting to help me and all, i am...ok so...i did lie to mike i told him i was going to canada, because i knew he would not let me go to california. i mean, im just staying with moss, and he has nothing absolutely nothing to worry about with moss, still, it was weird staying with him in las vegas, we had a nice room tho, but you know what i mean. im sleeping on the couch now. yes i know moss is a good friend we have been friends for years. but i love mike! moss doesnt seem to understand or respect that i do have caring feelings for mike. i mean, mike and i LIVE TOGETHER!!!! so i got off plane in las vegas, and i was like, "wtf am i doing here!???" to make matters worse, i called mike, and he had told me he just got into a bad car accident! i just started crying. what was i doing in las vegas, (and i didnt tell him at that point i was there) he thought i was in canada. He told me his airbag saved him. He could of died, and here i am, in fucking las vegas!?? i was so upset, than moss picks me up. "Hi" he says as he knudges my arm, (something he always does)...and i hate when he does that. im upset i dont even know what i am DOING in las vegas!?? you know? mike just got in a car accident! so i was so upset. still am. so, what did we do? moss picked me up i forget what we did!?? he picked me up we went to the signature, oh yeah, we went somewhere to eat? we ate at the MGM grand, and moss saw these kids there dressed warped vans style moss was like, "i bet they are a band" i was like, "no dont bother them!" but when we get up to leave he asks them and yes they WERE a band, 'breathe carolina'. after dinner we went to the craps table and played craps, won some lost some, (well, i won some, moss lost some)...i had an amp energy drink and a shirley temple, with a little bit of grenadine, a big splash of orange juice, and ice, (like moss's drink! HAHA! moss's drink is a shirley temple!)...i was so tired we went to sleep, yeah it doesnt feel right being in a hotel room with another man when i love mike, but its moss im just saying, how i felt...ok? OK!??? next morning i call mike, crying prevails. moss talks and talks and my mind is elsewhere! ok so, it was SO HOT! 108 degrees that day. i put on the sandals my mom gave me, because i was going to war the flip flops moss was like, 'wear something comfortable ' i tried those on they were comfortable and i forgot to bring my flops....ok so moss was like, "we are going to eat, new york new york cafe, get the laminates, (one of his favorite words, laminates)...pronounced lah-min-etts...so, i didnt realize he wanted to walk to the luxor, so i was following him and my ankles started hurting from the shoes. i was starting to get blisters, so we went inside luxor and i got flip flops and a hat. then, we walked over to warped, but i was so hungry, i mean, i wasnt SO hungry, but wth? he wanted to get the laminates first??? it was so hot! we got inside warped and i was following him around, and we stopped in the backstage tent, it was so fucking hot! i made sure to get plenty of water, they had water,cucumber water, and monster mocha drinks and stuff, i had water, water water and a mocha drink on ice. i have a pic too, (i might post them later, if not the pics are on my instagram or facebook, i can link later)...i mean, so i followed moss around and he stops to get things out of his bag, and my heart beats fast when its hot out, i had to sit down we found a spot and i layed down. first aid tent was there and they came over and asked me if i was ok and brought me into the first aid tent and gave me bottled water and a glove full of ice. i was like, 'wth moss! why would you go on this excursion before getting food or water? it just does not make sense! you know!?? i was so pissed! anyways, i felt better after drinking a whole bottle of water so we went back out, watched some bands, moss blew up some beach balls and threw them into the audience, stuff like that...we talked to kevin lyman the guy who started warped and runs it, also talked to his daughters i noticed the one said she was reading M. butterfly, (i just took note of that)...shrug...went backstage etc. oh yeah, moss started talking about some guy with pink hair and i looked and noticed the tattoos i was like, hey that is jeffree starr? i thought he was taller? i spotted him in hollywood he seemed very tall!?? but yeah, so i was looking, and he was looking at us, like they were whispering? i thought maybe because its of that blog i made ha! well moss didnt listen when i told him he just talked and walked away? so...what else? i forget! sigh, its saturday night and ughh im just here. i dont even want to go out. i dont really have any friends here, fuck this place. i dont even know why i came here for real. i feel like i am stuck, and now mike is out having fun. when i get back he *might* have me stay, but then i will have rules like i cant go out or drink...wtf? all i want to do is enjoy life. is that so fucking hard? yeah so, we were ons stage while yellowcard played. i remember listening to yellowcard. jeremy loved that band. he would always talk in his hoarse alchohol ridden voice, 'yellowcard" ughh jeremy! but i was on stage with them! that was cool! jeremy is the guy who was so mean to me, who owed me money he lives in ocean city, NOT ron jeremy! ha! so we sat down later with kevin lymans daughters, oh, nevermind. just want to mention the one started talking about CSI, and filming there and in atlantis, and the other daughter motioned for her to be quiet..weird. i felt kind of awkward, you know??? sitting there and all that...trying to look cluelessly happy and agreeable but all the time wondering if they all knew, about me and MY BLOGS!!!! THESE BLOGS THEY ARE ALL WAITING FOR ME TO DO!!!

and with that i say, TO BE CONTINUED! SCARLETT JOHANZZEN!!!