lol. man, i need a job! i am starting to feel a lil' better, but if i was working and i knew i was getting somewhat of an income, i'd feel a lot more...better! but still, i need to get a real job! not some lamers job. i need to make good money. maybe i can do bartending!? and NO! i would not drink of the job! wtf would i do that? cuz i know ppl are thinking, 'lori its not good if you are sober to be around alchohol. um NAWH! i would not be all drinking while i was working i aint some sort of fool! believe it or not i do have work ethic! i also actually do like busy environment! when i worked at the photo lab i loved when it was nice and busy! i like when things get busy because the day just goes by quicker!
anyways, last night scotti invited me to her house today. she invited me to swim in her pool and that a bunch of ppl were gonna be there. so i was like, oh cool! so today i went to target to find a cheap bikini to wear (i dont have any new ones), so i found one, i didnt try any on tho meh!! i didnt take a shower because i was planning on using the pool. i txted her and told her i was gonna be there a bit later. she said pool from noon to around 10pm. well, i was at mikes...saturday we went to shrutys and met up with westin there. sunday i was so lazy..we went to hibachi tho. :/ so i went to target and asked mike if he wanted to go and he said yeah, so we went there when he got home. (i was thinking he wanted to see scotti in a bikini shrug)...anyways, i think i look bleh..i took some pics. i gained weight since last summer :( oh!
who cares tho!? im gonna do the black tape project, with 'ducklettes' i will post link to ducklettes later. see, i am proud of my body! i really do not give a shit anymore that i have more weight whatever! yeah i do want to lose some weight, but who cares! im getting older so whats it gonna matter when im a senior citizen! by then...oh, who knows how much my life will of changed!??!
anyways, mike and i went, they were in pool playing volleyball so we got in (cold at first!!!) but once we started playing i warmed up. i scored a lot of points due to my good serving! but when it comes to defense (or whatever) i was not too good bcuz i was too nervous about my loose top. i need a good top that i will feel confident doesnt fall. seems every bathing suit i get always falls down or shift or something!? i need a suit that will stay put when i jump up and down!??! or whatever!?? i think i would have to spend good money on one tho. whatever!??? so they had food and beer (scotti was kind of vague about her party. i had some beer i could of brought but i didnt think about it? and mike drove me so he told me i couldnt drink. really!?? i was invited and i cant drink!)
so anyways....(i had some chewy meat chunks..shish kabob,. my mom had made them....and some mac and cheese homemade, but i can never find the salt, hot sauce or any condiment here!??! this is why i want my own kitchen!!! :D)
so yeah, it was fun. i need to get in the pool. i feel kind of sick now tho!?? i feel sleepy chlorine pool drained ugh lets hurry up with this blog!!!
hmm i dont know!?? im too drained to continue now, and all that meat chewing gave me a headache. i dont like chewy meat!!! but it was grilled. once, at a hibachi with kim, we had the filet mignon. it was wonderful! it was buttery soft and so easy to chew. the best red meat i ever had!
anyways, there was guy there who was personable, and i think would of been fun to chat with. sort of nerdy/funny. and scotti was telling me about how she already owned 3 properties. you see, it is easy to get a good career going for you. i could of been on the right path if i had the right guidance. its not that i am stupid! i always had a 4.0 gpa deans list phi theta kappa. i have always got good grades and i know how to study i pick up on skills, i am very creative and artistic.
where did i go wrong? nj and pa girls can do good for themselves you see!? i mean, she is saving up money and she is going to move and buy a house at the beach in sc. i forget what beach!?? uh...whatever!??
i got duis. i fucked up I FUCKED UP!!! but i see that sobriety can actually bring good opportunities. listen, so should i become some sort of sloppy, useless heroin addict, see? i dont drink everyday i dont become out of control. so why do these ex heroin addicts become vice presidents (like on the steve harvey show today?) people who are ex alchohlics and drug addicts become counselors and good ppl of the community, yet i am shunned and made to be some sort of loser trash? i give up!
so yeah, then mike was like, 'yeah wait...oh, yeah scotti was telling me she has 10k saved up and is moving next year to get a house. she had a bunch of guys that seemed to all be like, idk...it reminded me of scarlett o hara and all the dufus' that were in love with her , (but one was gay we found out), and mike turned into one of them! he was like, 'aww shucks, scotti! you, your a pretty girl! ' (in my head he was like that) after she said she went on a date and the guy told her her boobs were too flat! oh yet mike tells me all the that i have small boobs and he likes big boobs. i have never had anyone tell me my boobs are too small i know they arent huge but, i have never had any complaints yet mike is always talking about big boobs. yet he was telling scotti about how that guy is a fool. geez, everyone fawning all over her!?? and then mike! and i feel like ok mike!?? calm down! and he was getting a chubby (lol) in his pants! i feel like a big creep because he is being a big creep. then she asked him if him and i are dating and he said just friends so the gay guy was like, oh so you became friends or she said so you are like close friends now and he said, 'close to killing each other' wtf mike? even tho later he tried to chuckle the whole thing felt like a creepy drenched convo and when her guy friend left mike was like, 'it seems like hes in love with you; but i tried to save it by going, 'hes protective' which is when she said hes gay. i dont know, mike starts to talk and then he will keep talking..i dont know about you but when you are a girl and you bring your guy the guy should paint you in a good light and be respectful and not resort to becoming an aww shucks fool, then switching to calling me out like im a monster bitch! "aww shucks miss scotty, you can do better than that! your a pretty girl! but whats a blue collar dude like me thinking i deserve a pretty girl like you' (then to me)..."she aint a better volleyball player than me. SHE she she SHE is the devil bitch blah blah blah cunt cunt " he never says that but when does he EVER say good things about me!? and i think im a good looking girl! he doesnt realize how good i am and he just starts getting me on my case bcuz i am not working now, i dont have a good job, blah blah blah! and then i try to save his ass by not making him seem like a complete douche ugh i should not of brought him. i am making a bigger deal than it was but still it bothers me.
aww shucks miss scarlett! i told him and he just goofily laughed. i need some cute funny guys to flirt with or somthing!!??!?!
oh and i would NEVER flirt with any of mikes friends!
let me tell you something so, i do not cheat and i dont care how many times mike wants to tell me im a cheater i am NOT!
when mike and i first started going out, i thought he would feel happy and proud to be with me...i mean face it, hes not the best looking guy out there, and i think i am pretty hot, yet, i invited him to lisas bday party at riverside, and he was all like, showing her the gettysburg map and getting all excited and then i invited him to scotties housewarming party in hellertown, and he just talked to her all night. at parties he would fawn all over crystal like homer slobbering over the venus de milo in the babysitter episode...i mean, not to mention all the times he gets 'spaghettio meatball eyes' when he checks out attractive girls. where are all the hot good looking guys!???! there always seems to be attractive girls walking around never once did i see cute guys!?? the whole time we lived in bethlehem he would talk about actresses and check out other girls...etc etc..and i started feeling very...meh. so when i worked at the airport, there was a cute tsa guy who used to always talk and smile a sort of, half smile that was cute...and i started to feel attracted to him...so yeah, mike who knows? plus he never wanted to go out with me, he would always try to control me, tell me what to do, make me feel like shit because i was not working, i went to lincoln tech in hopes for getting a job...anyways, mike never wanted to do anything and the tsa guy asked for my fb and my # so he invited me to go out so i did. ok?
but so what? if i am dating someone who is respectful of me and yeah other girls can be attractive but dont please dont be rude about it! and dont be a creep hitting on my friends either...mike thinks its funny well,.haha!! so funny!!!
but yeah i dont cheat! if i am with someone that i care about i would not do that!
also, scotti went to criminal justice and became a security guard but now she is a dealer at the sands she makes like 14.00 an hour plus tips so she said like 18-20 an hour but she is going to work on a cruise ship when she moves 3 days a week how cool huh? oh but mike was asking where and what days she works. he might bring his friend there for his shift and get mad when she goes for his friend, but of course hes not going to tell me, but when i ask what happened he will jsut yell at me. why else is he not friends with scott of burgess? has to be a girl. now hes going to go to her shift and bring a friend...of course he wont tell me tho...
oh weird!??! ok so....google it! i just ..weird
yeah kim posted something about the ice cream, since hse keeps talking about her blue moo ice cream!?? i have no idea!? and weirdo joe maltby said not to eat too much ice cream but then he says i have a desirable figure (in my new bikini) and im not trying to be desirable for him or anyone relly!??
kim said its blue like a waffle and i was like, kim, do not google blue waffle! then i did...i guess its from syphilis..well on conan just now, they did a wikibear thing about al capone oh it too um the blue waffle went to one of those gore sites (not my thing! ugh i cannot view stuff like that ok? death gore nasty shit like that)
so fan correction was about how al capone died wiki says 'aphysixian' or something and the guy says to google it, and it went to syphilis i just said google it (blue waffle) and that is about syphilis i think all in all nasty stuff altogether!??!
so um......im just gonna publish now!??!
i want to watch monument men with my parents but i also want to chillax up here i will watch movie tomorrow!
ginte
ok i have more to write the office is on now, and amy adams, i wanted to write about her before..
something used to seem so normal about her but something is so off about her. its like, due to her movies where she becomes saturated by a character she plays, the MK oozes off of her. she played the disney fairy princess in that one MK movie..( i never seen it), i did see american hustle, she was all weird in that, also just seen 'her', she was supposed to be a frumpy...then um, i guess the office, where she is another pam, but more..weird?
something just doesnt seem right about her!?? i noticed the big telephone in 'her'...(call up another one of her alters) american hustle multiple personalities
i dont know? i just...feel like she did some evil stuff or she does evil stuff..
im mad because i press enter but its not entering!!
see?
i press enter a bunch of times to have a better paragraph but nothing!?
oh yah amy adams reminds me of my aunt sally tho, with her curly red hair and smile wrinkles around her blue eyes...cept my aunt sally is a pure christian, with a silly side tho!??
what am i talking bout why cant i press ENTER and go to a new paragraph!
oh yeah..nevermind!!
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