I AM SO PISSED NOW!
what the fuck!?? i even saved some from earlier, but it is not here? how did that happen? i had one long fingernail that was bugging me, then it just highlighted and deleted everything.
basically, i was saying........about what i did with sage this weekend, (we went to church, made youtube videos, slept downstairs...went to hospital for my bill, it said medicaid is taking care of it??? so that means i have medicaid??)
i said a few other things of course, ugh this is lame!!! i said how i went for the ride tonight to drop off sage, and i enjoyed smelling the summer scents of fresh lush grass, wheat from farmhouses, mineral from rock formations, how i love dusk time (some jokes i heard on modern family at the moment i was writing about wishing i had someone HOT and fun and exciting to drink wine with at dusk time, outdoors, in a beautiful summery, sweet, magical environment. i talked about my dreams too, which i am going to have to re-write. i am so PISSED because i just wanted to get the blog over with, publish it, so i can move on to other things!!!??! i wrote alot too!!! i wrote about the diets of sage and my mom, i just....wrote a bunch of thoughts and stuff!??! and its all gone.
damnet!!! ugh wtf ...i mean, granted it was unimportant stuff but still!!??!! i said a lot! oh well...im just gonna skip to my dreams.
i said, i have been dreaming about celebrities. i wonder what that means. big time celebs tho, such as 'bill murray, tom hanks, and jack nicholson' (nothing sexual TRUST ME! lol). the other night, when sage was sleeping here, i had put on zombieland, to fall asleep too. sigh (this truly sucks ito rewrite all i had written).....
i remember the symbolisms with zombieland, i wrote about it. now i dont feel like it tho..just want to get this blog fucking over with, the pisser!
i said, i was in a room with a bunch of MKd celebrities, who wanted to sacrifice me. i was freaking out so i ran to escape. i was running and ended up in an office. there was a chair. the other night a girl was mentioning how she wanted to do a chair dance like madonna and britney spears...(masonic chair dance) tom hanks was in the office him symbolizes mason, freemason (davinci code, angels and demons etc)...
oh yeah i mentioned how we are all envious (generally) of celebrities, yet they are MK'd...slaves! i even said how odd a choice that i chose to watch a video on how johnny depp cannot even watch his own movies!??! it is because he becomes the characters. he is a slave, a bluebird in a cage.
they are the slaves, yet we are envious of them. i also mentioned how these 'ignorant' comments that gwyneth paltrow makes seem like some sort of cry for help...that being a famous 'actress' is actually comparative of PTSD like what soldiers go through..they have been traumatized since children i am sure gwyneth has been she is multigenerational isnt she?
i used the word coupling when referring to the modern family stuff that made me LOL earlier, but that is lost, thanks to highlighting and deleting...damnet! i said her coupling with these types BLAH who cares now!??? :(
so back to my dream: i ended up going to this room, (other beautiful actress types were with me, not comparing myself to beautiful actress or anything like that just part of my dream?), and bill murray was in it (zombieland triggered it? also adult swim had some sort of 'sleeper agent trigger phrase' on their bumps other night lol idk)...... he goes, 'welcome, charlies angels'.......it was like the killing room, that MK ultra movie, but they are only entering the next level of programming...the charlies angels programming....the thing is, how did i even know that bill murray was the voice on that movie? i mean, i watched it when it came out, back in 2000!???! but seriously!??! how would i remember bill murray was in charlies angels!???!
i also had a weird dream, this morning sigh...i am so not in the mood to rewrite it tho!??! another synch, on this show on tv, they started talking about tom hanks movies?
anyways, i googled what does dreaming of celebrities mean, and here is what i found:
What do dreams about celebrities mean?
According to Smith, "Celebrities typically, in our culture and worldwide, portray and carry some kind of message that's associated with personal accomplishment or lack thereof. A person dreaming about [a celebrity] is seeking inspiration ... or some characteristic that is associated with that celebrity."
What can I learn about myself from dreaming about this subject?
"We can gain insight into the characteristics we seek," says Smith. "For example, a female who has been feeling like she's overly submissive, she may dream about being a male celebrity, that hero archetype. Upon waking, she may have a glimpse of that dream, of that hero, the feeling of adoration and the energy of inspiration. The waking ego will integrate that hero energy that she brought up from her own adoration, and she may feel some calming balance."
also:
http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdictionarysearch.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=Celebrities
i wrote about my dream this morning but im too lazy to write about it again.........
ill make more blogs tho i always do!?? im going to look for another blog home tho this place is really pissing me off!!!
i think that...zombieland triggered bill murray, bill murray triggered a tom hanks (freemason) and jack nicholson was in the bucket list, and i have been talking about the bucket list, plus i made that gif with the bucket
see!??!
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