anyways

I JUST WANT A JOB! i actually miss when i used to live with mike (i would tell him  i want to rent a house now tho!!!) i miss having a full time job. you know? this dui bullshit is just that. i am so pissed off.

i dont have money! i just......i was trying so hard to save up last year, i just wanted to work and save my money. what the fuck happened!?? 2014 was a fucked up year.

ok so first, go to this link. you see, there is also another hidden msg. twin pines and 3:11 turn the time upside down 911 and also TWIN as in twin towers. the next time the time is 33 (masonic number)

so another 'easter egg'

http://www.sliptalk.com/back-to-the-future/?utm_source=fb&utm_medium=boost&utm_campaign=back-to-the-future

anyways, so moss says what i should do is focus on my new years resolutions

see, i dont focus on resolutions UNLESS i have the means and resources to follow through with them. otherwise its just nice sounding dreams.

he says, this year try to focus on not getting a job but a  CAREER!


clearly moss is intent on living DREAMS which is why he want to try and direct and produce while living in hollywood. he never got the memo!

i would be happy to even have a JOB! i can do what i like (create) as a hobby.  i just hope i dont become too old and bitter and forget about my artistic side.

i mean..........moss. i moved out to hollywood because i thought listening to him was going to lead me down a path to find out answers....but it never did, nor do i think it ever will!??!


the only thing i feel i can do is TRUST my instincts, and WRITE about my 'crazy weird thoughts and ideas'!!! i can turn it into a story! i can do this AT HOME! i can do this while on my house arrest. moss tried to give me advice on how to keep busy via a good tv. (i just bought myself a nice flat screen hi-def and a playstation 4 (and how did i BUY these fun things? oh, by WORKING!  aka having a JOB!!!) a JOB gives you a steady income, thus allowing us to buy ourselves things we like! "get a mac lori' um ok well i need to save up for a mac! and how can i afford to just get a mac moss? OH BY HAVING A JOB!!?? so yeah, for me, a job is just perfect!!! also....and why does it need to be a mac? right!???

i want to MOVE OUT! i want MY OWN PLACE!!!!!!!!!! MY OWN PLACE!!!

this is all i ever want! and some good friends!

a good JOB!!! OK? what career does moss think i can career into!??! being an intern at an entertainment department?

ok so..........i need to figure out what i should do!??!

he says.........i need to go 'kayck' or cake. i called him cake boy because he said 'kayck' but the site is kayak. cheap ticket. he called me 'icing girl' then he showed me that earlier he said he wants to go to las vegas and it would be the icing on the cake if i came out...so i am icing girl?!?? so anyways, earlier i wrote about 'cake boy' and donald faison who called the guy a cake boy meaning gay...remember? oddly enough, at the time, conan was on tv and guess who the guest was, (at the exact moment we were calling each other cake boy and icing girl?) donald faison!??!

also.......i was reading a back to the future article or something, oh yeah the one i shared above, and at that moment, 'pickle dog' or whatever was on adult swim and he was a greaser from the 50s and the street looked like the back to the future street that i was looking at and thinking about set design for that movie..

so......does that mean, my career can be...set design!??!

anyways!!!????????????????????

oh so...what should i do!?? bcuz my court date is coming up. im broke regardless, but should i go out there for shooter jennings concert (hes hot yeah?) or............i mean that concert and meet and greet VIP via ron jeremy..im assuming, oh lets wiki shooter jennings..and then las vegas/gambling...and the AVNs!??! i mean, i will be so bored having house arrest so i think a trip will be good.

or just...not go? plus my parents well my dad, he does not want me to go. im an adult tho. i want to decide what to do. i havent went to court yet so i can go.

i cant think!!

um this show, the monarch..has a bevy of beauties some red haired 'the rusty' said he met an actress he could of had sex was too tired..they are all on a rotating bed...makes me think of prince harry and the beta kittens..such as a britney spears he wanted to order.

the thing is, what kind of sex makes sex with a beta kitten better than normal sex? i guess when they were so heavily abused as children, its easy to get access filed up...this show the monarch is alla bout mind control.eros xanatos all of his alters WOW a puppet of him with a leg chopped up total MK you know the venture brothers

"assisted suicide"

why do all the women have mens voices and hot bodies!? oh wait..because the hot women handlers are males for the most part meaning...their personalities are created by a mens

what else?
 his butt is burning......ughh wow.......it lead to a hallway with doors...tragic memory ducts..all the door open......

this show tho...yeah...

here it is or something!?? he says his dad invited playboy models, models, and real prostitutes..(one of his memories of being 16) sounds like a monarch


hmm

http://seekcartoon.com/watch/21327-the-venture-bros-season-4-episode-14-assisted-suicide.html#.VKuABivF_fk

anyways........



EDIT oh my gosh moss!?? ugh forget it HA! um...so before moss kept talking about shooter jennings to me and i always ignored him. he is son of waylond jennings..waylon...

so i clicked on link i said, hes hot huh? (in that typical way) moss was like, 'he would like you lori" MOSS NO HE WOULDNT! PLUS HE IS MARRIED! probably to a beautiful waifer who marries celebs. or celebrity whatevers!??!

look at moss, trying to lure and entice me somehow! are you kidding me!? im ugly gross disgusting! the only thing i am good at is to become fodder for the besmirkers!

ahh forget it! and why the hell would i want to go out to las vegas only to look like crap next to sexy little porn stars!??! i remember one year i looked big as heck, wearing a dead animal that dave attell commented on, and a little MK looking whatever........

that one blonde porn star! she looked so tiny and big boobs oh whats her name?

i totally forget her name now!?????????????????????????/

google porn blond star avn HA yeah right!?? but yeah!

for some reason i kind of want to hook up with someone famous!! ha!!

hmm.........nevermind! i was going to share a story but dont want to share.

i cant think!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also wait why did moss tell me a story that his dad is part of the crew that occured the day the music died (miss american pie)

what is moss saying!??! he doesnt make sense