im sleepy. i want to start my 2015 and stuff, but...i mean...its a new year! i should be ready to figure out my life! yes......it is a new year. lets do what i need to do. 

i mean, house arrest is gonna suck but lets get this over with! 

so tomorrow, i need to go pick up those scripts at the clinic. i also need to get an ultrasound, go to the website (for an insurance referrel!?? referral??) 

i also need to find a JOB!! YEAH i do!! cuz i need to work while being on house fucking arrest!

anyways, i need to go to sleep. later! 

i want to start losing weight tho! im sick of feeling gross and eating gross! i just want to move on with life.

i love mike but i miss good HOT sex and attraction i mean! sorry i just DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss communicatio, friends, feeling like i matter in this stupid life.

blah blah BLAH