ASMR ~Sounds of Nature and Smoking a Cigarette~

I need to make a smoking ASMR video. The other day I was going to get a pack, but didnt. I would get Newport Menthol Lights. That is what I used to smoke. Watching people smoke actually reminds me of being alive. I know it sounds weird, but it reminds me of a time where I felt alive. I have no idea how I feel anymore...!??!?